Life In Front Of The Lens

Life In Front Of The Lens

As a photographer, I know that I am guilty of remembering what it feels like to on the other side of the lens.​ As a former bride myself, I remember how awkward it was for my husband and me to get comfortable in front of the camera during our engagement session and at our wedding. Posing felt completely unnatural. As much as we loved our wedding photographers, we really just wanted a beer because *this* was stressful!

I try to remind myself from time to time just how strange and nerve wrecking it feels to be a "model" for a photographer. Listening to their directions about the ways they want you to contort your body can be challenging when you're not used to it. As a photographer, it's sometimes challenging when we're directing our models, and well, they're just not getting it (which is totally our fault, not yours!). That's why I think it's important for all photographers to get out from behind the camera and get in front of it!​

A couple weeks ago a photographer friend came out to visit California with her husband, and she and I decided to get together for a photo adventure. I met her at her hotel in Los Gatos, and we ventured around the town and took portraits of each other. I'm not going to lie-- it was strange. I've had my portrait taken by professionals several times (school, engagement, wedding, boudoir, head shots, etc.), but having Agnieszka take my photo still felt really weird. I all of a sudden became very conscious of my hands and arms. I wondered if my hair was frizzy. Did the dress I decided on that morning make me look fat? I should have tanned more so my legs matched my arms. And damn these heels! I'm guessing that these are all things that you my beautiful clients, feel when having your own portraits taken, right?

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Birthday Love: Michelle

One of my very favorite brides ever is Michelle E. She and Danny got married in September of 2011 and I still remember their wedding as one of the most fun times I've ever had at a couple's wedding! Today the lovely Michelle is celebrating a birthday, so I just wanted to send her some extra love! Here are a few of my favorite photos from their wedding day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!

Featured Photographer on I Do Photographer Network!

I feel like a bit of a rock star right now. I was highlighted on The I Do Photographer Network as their featured photographer!

The I Do Photographer Network is a great resource for couples who are looking for a great wedding photographer in their area. The network has a fantastic listing of photographers with full portfolios. I'm so happy to be one of their featured photographers!

A Secret About a Secret

When I look at photos, and when I'm taking photos, I often think about what is going through the minds of the subjects. I shoot a lot of weddings, and those are such emotional days. Happiness, hope, love, nostalgia, anxiety, are all emotions that are experienced that day, and what I strive to capture in my images. With portraits too, there's so much emotion within a person during their portrait sitting. What are they thinking about? Posing for a portrait is such an intimate time between a subject and a photographer (one that I'm so blessed to experience), and those raw emotions are often so beautiful and make their portrait them.

I was just thinking about that today... What do our photos say about us? What secrets from within are we giving away when someone takes our photo? 

One of my very favorite photographers is Diane Arbus. I love her because she made her life's work about photographing the people and things that would, at her time, otherwise never be photographed. She photographed what most people looked past and often didn't notice (or tried not to). She photographed the people who were deemed socially unacceptable. Her photographs are so honest and real. Looking at the photos I like to think that I can see what they're feeling while being truly looked at  by their photographer, who appreciates them, rather than people who were instantly judging them, but I don't know what secrets their holding within. The pain and the hope are there, definitely, but the more I look, the less I know about them.

Photo by Diane Arbus

Photo by Diane Arbus

Photo by Diane Arbus

I guess that's why I love her photographs, and photographs in general. The ability to show so much is always possible when snapping a photo. But showing what a person is feeling, what they're holding back within themselves is not always easy. Each photograph holds its own secrets, and we, as viewers and photo-takers, can only begin to try to unravel them.